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[10.23.06//11:01PM] |
ten people, you could be here.
Directions:
write ten statements
intended to different people
with things you've always wanted to say.
never tell which one is to who
1) I don't even know how I feel about you anymore. If i actually think about it, you were neevr really there for me at all. I think i thoguht i had to feel a certain way abotu you, because of who you are. But really, i probably love you just as much as the next man to walk down the street. I'm sorry, I don't like feeling this way towards you. But i have no respect for you, you ruined my life for years. I ahve so many things to say to you that i cant even put into words and so many questions that i'll never have enough courage to ask you. I hope at least you're happy with yourself, while i pretend to love you as much as i should.
2) I really, actually think i've fallen in love. The way i actually feel about you scares me, because i've never felt it before. It scares me because I'm scared of losing this feeling, like i don't deserve you, like i don't deserve any of the happiness you brought into my life. You're sincerly amazing, and I'm so glad that you're a part of my life. I hope things stay like this, because they can't get any better for me. I love you, so much.
3)You frustrate me so much sometimes, and I know that everyday we take eachother for granted, but I love that fact that i know that you'll be there for me at teh end of the day. I went through a hard time this summer, and you were there. You gave up your birthday with your family to come with me when i needed a friend the most. I dislike the fact that we've grown apart since things that have happened last year. But you really will always be my best friend. I love you so much.
4) You were so amazing, and i never even noticed it until it was litterally too late. All you ever did was worry about me and ask about my life, and all i did was sigh and answer you like it was a big effort. I wish that i could have one more minute with you, at least, to tell you how much i love you, and to tell you taht i'm sorry for not being patien enough with you. I wish that i would have gotten to say goodbye to you, but i was too much of a coward, and i think about it all the time, and just wish i could go back. I miss you so much, and I'm just waiting until i can see you again.
5) Really, you make my life a living hell. You amke me want to do things that i shouldn't want. It's like you love to drain every ounce of happiness right out of me I don't like having hateful feelings towards people, but really. I'e never disliked anyone more. You can apologise all you want, and tell me I'm the one who's wrong. But in no way will it change how i feel about you. I can't wait until i can get away from you, for good.
6) you are one of the most beautiful, strongest girls i know. I don't know where i would be without you, in all honesty. We've only ever fought a couple times, but i love you so much, you are my best friend.
7) you are so nice. you apologise so much, even when it is very un-nessessary. You caused the best summer of my entire life. I only wish things stayed that way. PLease don't grow any farther apart from me, i love you so much.
8) you helped make my summer amazing. you're absolutely gorgeous, and i fid myself jealousof you sometimes. i love you.
9) well, you ahve become one of my best friends. I can always talk to you. I love you, so much. Im so glad i know you.
10) You got me through the hardest times in mylife. Theres things i can tell you that i woudlnt tell anyone else in the world. I know i've messed up, but trust me, like i trust you. Im so glad i met you, and i hope to see you again soon. i lov eyou so much
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[07.27.06//5:38PM] |
i'm going home saturday morning, and i'm scared.
my mom said we're going to be talking, so i'm pretty sure im in shitttt.
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[07.24.06//7:00PM] |
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i don't care how bad this sounds, but i miss the feeling of being empty.
i really do.
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[03.31.06//10:42PM] |
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tonight was really fun.
madison or katelynn couldn't go to ashley's with me, but i still had alot of fun :)
i haven't seen tony in a while.
we watched house of wax, which was more funny than scary.
tonight was just fun, i really wish that i could have stayed longer :)
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[03.31.06//4:10PM] |
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good, excited! |
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mae |
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the dance last night was fun.
i always wait until the last half hour to get into it and start dancing though.
haha, i actually went up on the bench, which honestly, i never thought i would.
i got my grad dress after school yesterday, i really love it.
it's a tube top, long and white.
when i went to jenna's before the dance, she put it on over her jeans and ran down to sarah's house in it.
haa, i found it funny. we hung out at sarah's until the dance and it was fun.
today was pretty boring. nothing really happened.
oh! im going to ashley lavigne's tonight with madison.
tony's there! we're going to surprise him. i havent seen him since after christmas and im excited!
well, thats pretty much it.
god, im such a myspace addict.
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[03.28.06//7:17PM] |
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spitalfeild |
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i have 2 new projects.
one on astology. me and jenna are doing ours on the moon. it'll be sweet.
we were going to do mars and do a quiz for the class, and the winner get a mars bar hahaha.
And in social studies we have to make a time line.
i really want to good on these. i need to get better marks on my next report card.
i just got 24.5 out of 28 on my math test today, so my mom should be happy about that, haha.
me and katelynn just finished our fam studzzzzz project. IT'S SWEET.
tony's coming friday! i havent seen him in like, 9679342 years. i can't wait!
k,bye♥
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[03.27.06//3:49PM] |
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daphne loves derby |
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this weekend was actually really good. alot of the times my weekends are blah and sit-around-the-house-ish.
friday, katelynn came over after school and then that night my mom dropped us off at blockbuster cause i had to take a movie back for jenna, then we walked down to the theatre and saw Stay Alive. I really liked it and i got really scared haha. it was katelynn's first time seeing a horror movie in the theatre. haha, LOSAA! nah, i loveyou katelynn, haha.
saturday, i did nothing really. babysat in the morning for a bit.
and then that night, madison picked me up aorund 6 and we went into sunnyside mall to get ashley, grace and kirsti and then went to the show.
i think that this was actually my favourite show that i have been to yet, with the exception of ok go. i talked ot alot of people that i never really talked ot before and seemed not so nice, haha.
i can't wait for the next show.
today at school was nothing special really, boring as usual.
we're getting a project in a couple weeks and im excited. yes, for a project. we have to carry a bag of sugar around for a week like its a baby & we have to take it EVERYWHERE. it's be fun :)
mr. lanoue is getting really pissed at me and jenna lately in class. i guess we talk to much? haha.
oh man, mr. boudreau, teh janitor, came into our class again today. well, mr lanoue shaved his moustache off, and mr boudreau was going on about that for a bit then he's like, well, i dont really knwo what he said but he said "chap"! and i found it so funny, i was like, crying and now i can't stop saying "chap". haha.
i ahve my high school courses selected too.
history, art and then the manditory ones. i am taking exploring tech. in ggarde 11 i guess in the first term, because i want to take design 11, and i need exploring tech to take it.
rob was being such an ass this morning. and mom always sides with him, no matter what.
i swear, i feel like she loves that dog more than me sometimes.
this was long, peace chaps!
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[03.26.06//5:17PM] |
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bring me the horizon |
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skinny jeans.
super excited!
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[03.26.06//11:06AM] |
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tired |
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oldies =) |
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last night was really good, other than the fact that i had really bad cramps.
i talked to alot of people last night haha. i was definately a really good show.
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[03.20.06//4:51PM] |
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good, tired. |
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copeland |
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i want to ask someone to grad. holy, im a whimp.
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[03.19.06//3:58PM] |
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tired |
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matchbook romance |
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last night was really fun. i love sleepovers.
jen, madison, jenna and i talked about like, everything.
now march break is over & it wasn't too shabby.
last night was a good end to it
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[03.17.06//10:51PM] |
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copeland |
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so, this was not my favourite pavilion show.
the bands were wicked, i just had an earache the whole time the pact was playing.
no one seemed happy. well, jen haha. god love her :)
yes, i sound old saying that, haha.
well, im gonna hit the sheets in a bit after i get something ot of alyson
night♥!
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[03.17.06//2:00PM] |
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panic! at the disco |
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so, were going to see the pact & moth and rust at the pavilion tonight.
we, being, me, madison, jenna, jen fenerty, jesse, jordan and maybe mark?
im really excited. even though i've never heard these bands haha. i just love the pavilion.
i got the panic! at the disco cd yesterday, and i love it.
so, otmorrow night i might have katelynn karly and danielle sleepover and sunday we're going to get our grad dresses!
theres a 10$ sale at halifax shopping center.
gonna be fun :)
havent you heard?! i'm the new cancer♥
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[03.17.06//1:10PM] |
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panic! at the disco |
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last night mom took me to see the hills have eyes. it was really good. haha, it was scary at times, but not too bad.
buuut, i have to go get ready! i'll update when i get done!haha
LUVV♥!
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[03.14.06//10:10PM] |
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better than before haha |
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silverchair |
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sunday was pretty much the nicest day of the year.
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[03.14.06//4:28PM] |
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sick, still. |
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thrice |
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so, im pretty much addicted to making collages, haha.
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[03.14.06//12:56PM] |
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ah, i just did someting that makes me a horrible person. i am sorry jenna. i meant ot say "you're cute" not "your cute". god, what am i coming to?! haha.
well, last night i went to bed at 11 and didnt get to sleep until 1. id otn remember the last time i was this sick. i slept with a sheet, a fuzzy blanet, 2 comforters, and 2 more fleece blankets, WITH my heat upto reeeeally high. i was like, shivvering and had to call my mom. serisouly, i was liiike dying.
i feel alot better now,though i am still sick. this really sucks. my march break is being ruined. well, its only tuesday. so, whatevz :)
so, me and niki had this bet going on last night. i should have made it for money, cause i totally kicked her ass.
well, i have to go eat my waffles.
PEACE-OUT♥
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[03.13.06//5:56PM] |
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jack johnson |
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ah, is anyone else sickish?
my mom thinks its cause i don't eat right. i eat fricking fine.
she thinks where i dont eat meat that i'm low in certain minerals?
ITS FUCKING FLU SEASON!
god.
well, she's getting me some vitamins and if they dont work im going back to eatign meat.
so she thinks. im not eating animals.
maybe i can go to the doctor?
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[03.13.06//3:29PM] |
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somthing corporate |
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haha,i love this.
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[03.13.06//12:53PM] |
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better :") |
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karl wolf haha |
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so i went to baclt op sleep for 4 hours and i feel SO much better.
haha, i had the best dream.
I was at my dad's caus eit was the sunday before march break, and the door bell rang, i htought it was mom coming to pick me up. i open the dorr and it was fucking nikki.
haha, i guess mom and dad invited her up for my march break.
it was awesome.
then i was on fear factor? haha.
so yeah. i wish the first dream was true.
i am SO fcking excited for summer. i can't wait for her to come!
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